to be or not to be? is it even a question?

i'm standing still on a continuous conveyor belt that dumps me into the same basket and recycles me to be just be in the same place before i know it..
my resume includes failed attempts at any changes to the routine..
and i always ask myself the same questions..

what is it about being a human that just makes you insatiable?
never satisfied with what you do have and obsessed with what you dont?
never alright with the ordinary and lust after the outstanding?
you can never fill that void thats existed within since birth.

why is simplicity obsolete?
its all so complicated.

we always need to find the deeper meanings in things and find the answers and prepare ahead of time but what good is any of that if acceptance is out of the question..?
when its all within reach but not in your hands?
when you figure out what your necessities for happiness in life are and you realize that you still cant survive with those in the "real" world?
what does someone do when those simplicities seem idealistic and romantic even..
..a fairy tale.
wouldn't it be great if fiction wasn't what it just simply and literally is?

you live your lives with an almost obsessive compulsive complexity preparing for the future when you forget what spontaneity defines;
the adrenaline that used to run through your veins when you fought for something you believed in..
the endorphins that used to be released into your body and you felt your face stretch a little and smile when the person you love (and loves you back) walked right up to you and did nothing but look at you to instantly let you forget your shitty day.. week.. month.. year.. life..

your very blood runs thin these days due to your recent habit of living..

you're sick of being a philosopher in a world of businessmen..
you detest the simple fact that you coexist all together in the most wonderfully tainted neverending heirarchy of a world..
and that you are one of the very few of the wisdom-damned people wherever you go..
you can't do shit about that either..

primitive is a word that seems a little too intriguing..
it feels only right to want to be more primitive in a world where humanity is being replaced with technology..
who else in the world agrees besides those who are shunned for turning out to be someone else than you expected?
expect the unexpected and you can never be too dissappointed.

accept that people think and act differently, let alone freely.
so maybe i should just move this once..
off of this conveyor belt runnin on that chain..
onto a new level of existence.